you make me
high
drunk
INTOXICATED
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Thursday, July 21, 2005
9:15 PM
i'm feeling confused now. a whirl of feelings inside me. i feel like: the people i grew up with are like strangers. okay la. one person la. but it's bad enough to make me feel awful inside. i guess it's because i know this resulted cos it's partly my fault. i know it's mostly my fault lar. for not wanting to repair things. for causing the gap to widen, when it could have been mended. now, i don't know if it can be mended again. i wish it could, or do i? i dunno. i'm just so confused. i remember the times we were so super close, we would talk on the phone for hours till our parents nagged. now all that's gone. in fact, i feel quite pathetic. i hardly talk to anyone on the phone anymore. =( whyyyy. i have become antisocialist. i hate myself. *sigh
feeling depressed now. don't know why. can't explain this sudden rush of feelings that overwhelm me. pms is weird. and it's irritating. go awayyyy.
i wish i could turn back time.. i would returm to 29 nov 1999. and make time stop there. it was the happiest day of my life. knowing how you felt, and on my birthday too. my best birthday gift ever ((:
i know it's not like me to blog such short entries. but i'm not exactly in the blogging mood. sry.
love, huili.
princess*
huili
seventeen
29th Nov
hcjc.nygh.phpps
pink.orange.yellow.green
dolphins.meerkats
wishingforyouonafallingstar*
brand new wadrobe (HAH!)
shades
gold charles&keith heels
esprit cargo pants
mango basic tops
*HUGS* TOTAL!
give huili more
*HUGS*
Get hugs of your
own