you make me
high
drunk
INTOXICATED
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005
8:50 PM
the Lord hath given and the Lord hath taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord. may God grant us all the strength to accept His will, and to trust and obey Him, knowing that ultimately, ALL things will work for our good.
death has once again hit me so close. hit me so personally. crying has become such a familiarity. sigh* wonder when it started.. i guess it must have been 2000. my 2nd aunt (daddy's side of the family) died of cancer. and then.. all the deaths started coming. at least once a year. 2001, beloved aunty kwai peng. again of cancer. 2002, no one. thankfully. 2003, my ah ma (daddy's mother) and my 1st aunt (daddy's side of the family). they died on the same day. ah ma due to loads of complications and old age. 1st aunt due to what, i forgot. then end of 2003, uncle james. which hit me quite bad cos it was my best friend's dad. and it was all too sudden. 2004, no one again. thankfully. 2005 so far. uncle basil, yi popo, ptr cheah. the first two were quite expected. they had been sick for many years, and their conditions were deteroirating. ptr cheah's was... a big big blow. it's like, 2 weeks ago, he was all health and smiling. during catechism class, he was saying that we just needed about 2 more lessons, and we'd be done with catechism. on national day, he even went with the church on the hike. all full of zest, youthfulness and enthusiasm. but the Lord was pleased to strike him with dengue. pleased that He should finally take dear pastor cheah home to glory. although i can't see what good can come out of this now, i know i have to trust. sigh* and i know i will miss ptr cheah loads. his sermons, his fellowship, his catechism classes, his jokes, teasing him about how short he is.. i can't carry on. it's just.. he was so.. one of us. one of the teens. i just cannot imagine that i won't be seeing him again on this earth. it's so hard to imagine. i don't want to. i really don't know what it's going to be like. he has touched me personally so many times, like no other pastor has. i.. words fail me now.
love, huili.
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gold charles&keith heels
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