you make me
high
drunk
INTOXICATED
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
11:05 PM
officially finished reading ps i love you. (leech: go read that book if you want something heart-warming. but it's written in a style that i think girls appreciate more, but still. it IS touching.) man. i cried so many times when reading the book. cried for holly (the main character). cried for gerry (Holly's husband). cried for holly+gerry. cried for aunty lee choo. cried for ptr cheah. cried for myself. sigh* i literally SOBBED. i think holly+gerry especially reminded me of ptr cheah+aunty lee choo. and that made me so sad. it's like sometimes, you really don't understand why God took ptr cheah away. esp, away frm aunty leechoo. she's so young! just past 30 (like holly)! and a widow. i dunno man. sometimes it's really hard to understand God's purpose. but then you know that it will work out for everyone's good. still. i felt really upset and sad when i read the book. and i know i'll cry again if i read the book again.
sometimes, i really hate myself cos i seriously cry too easily. like seriously. sigh. whats with me man. crying when i'm stressed. crying when i'm upset. crying when people piss me off. crying when people carry things too far. crying when i see disturbing scenes. crying when people scold me. crying when i watch sad shows. or read sad books. crying when i'm angry. argh. i'm such a weakling. like today, things were just not going my way. i cried like i think 5 times. whatswithme?!
ate at this korean restaurant for meis birthday ytd. food was good. service was BAD. they were seriously short-handed. i wish my birthday would come quickly. so that i can have birthday money. so that i can go buy my man utd jersey with karin! and buy so many clothes that i wanna get. and earrings. hairbands. sneakers. argh. loads of stuff lah.
ifeellikeaload'sbeenliftedoffmyshoulders.i'msogladit'sover.
i don't want to do minutes any more. shall do it tmr. i don't want to get back my results. i don't want to face reality. my dreams are like slipping away before my eyes. and there's nothing i can do to stop that frm happening. helpless.
oh yeah. just for memory's sake, when i look back at my entries a few years down the road. we got 2nd for frisbee and 4th for soccer for fos! so proud of 05s75... we rock! oooh. and i FINALLY exercised after a looooong time. proud of myself, especially since i ACTUALLY enjoyed sweating it out. more frisbee!
anws. i think our denomination's going to split up. i don't know why i'm feeling what i'm feeling. i'll sort out my feelings first. then i'll blog about it. but i'm glad my church takes the no remarriage stand.
iwannawatchwhitechicks! i miss my darling rachie and shuen. *huggs babes. we'll go out soon. i miss my dear zhu too. and i miss dear wayening. *catch up soon girls!
ohyah. i'll get round to doing that thing you tagged me to do okay wayening? not today. am not in the mood. sorry.
love, huili.
princess*
huili
seventeen
29th Nov
hcjc.nygh.phpps
pink.orange.yellow.green
dolphins.meerkats
wishingforyouonafallingstar*
brand new wadrobe (HAH!)
shades
gold charles&keith heels
esprit cargo pants
mango basic tops
*HUGS* TOTAL!
give huili more
*HUGS*
Get hugs of your
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