you make me
high
drunk
INTOXICATED
***
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
11:05 PM
it was depressing turning seventeen. i felt horrible today. quarrelled with my dad last night, threw a temper at mom... i started today (ie: 12 am) utterly pissed, sad, disappointed. i woke up in a foul mood. knowing that i was going for a job attachment instead of out celebrating made my mood worse. i was very distracted when doing devotion, which only made me more disgusted with myself. on the bus to lucky plaza, i cried - and managed to further humiliate myself.
and suddenly i realised that IF and when i finally manage to be near you, to see you again, it'll be all too late. you 20, i 18. too late, too late. i mean the norm's 21. your parents were 21. too late, too late. WHY?!?! i don't even know why i'm still clinging on. but i know i really need you.
but thanks to all my friends and loved ones, who with all their sms-es and well wishes made my day better. (oh, and tag prog today was rather interesting too.)
so here's a big *hug to all of you who cared enough to remember.
celene-who wished me on fri when i managed to catch her online after so many months! thanks for rmbering my dear.
alex-who wished me on sat in case he forgot.
sooling and sandra-who wished me on sun and gave me this LOVELY bouquet of orchids which i have preserved in my freezer ((: thank you so much. it really made my day.
auntie angela, mrs kortering, auntie suet yin-for wishing me happy birthday on sunday too!
david-for like... quite unwillingly wishing me happy birthday. hah.
and to all who sms-ed me on my birthday itself: claudia (you were the first! but you were early..), clement, yahting, dorcas, felicia, mingswin, kailing, huiling, minyi, emily, huiyi, isabel, matthew, shivika, ruowei garbie, celeste, karin, lydia dear, amy dear, cheegake, michelle, zhunian dear and wayening - THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH. ((: it was really really really appreciated. special mention goes to kailing, yahting, fel, huiling, minyi, em and huiyi who sms-ed frm india and even tried to call me on my handphone, even though it was flooding there. THANKS GIRLS. i was really touched ((:
to those who called: amelia (i'm pleasantly surprised you remembered!), justine pok! (please start acting your age, you're 2 months to 18! so OLD! tsk.)
yeah. nothing exciting happened today. oh well. thank God anyway for carrying me through yet another year of my life. for being there even though time and time again i disappoint Him. thank you Father.
love, huili.
princess*
huili
seventeen
29th Nov
hcjc.nygh.phpps
pink.orange.yellow.green
dolphins.meerkats
wishingforyouonafallingstar*
brand new wadrobe (HAH!)
shades
gold charles&keith heels
esprit cargo pants
mango basic tops
*HUGS* TOTAL!
give huili more
*HUGS*
Get hugs of your
own