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Sunday, April 02, 2006
7:20 PM

so i spent the whole of friday after school and sat before stj reading cecilia a'hern's "where rainbows end". maybe i should have done my tutorials instead of just reading intensively, cos i enjoyed "ps: i love you" more than this book but oh well. i'm not the type who can put down a book halfway through reading it; i must read the entire book in one sitting, so i read all 566 pages almost all at one go. that explains why i slept at 2:30 on fri. haha. so anyway, it was all abt 2 best friends. one guy one girl. and it details how they both actually liked each other but didn't want to risk ruining their really strong friendship of a gazillion years by confessing their feelings to each other. cliche. but there were quite a number of sub-plots very intricately twisted into the main plot, so it made the story much more readable and perhaps even enjoyable. it was also actually quite scary reading the book because it basically sums up the 1st 50 years of rosie's (the protangonist) life, and it all just passed so quickly; one flip of the page and she's like one year older (ok, so maybe not THAT exaggerated but still). and you stop and think, and realise (with a start) that hey! your life really passes that quickly too. are you spending everyday meaningfully, living for others around you and not just for yourself?

so on to the main plot abt that whole bestfriend-lovers kind of thing. it actually got me thinking cos well, i remember how in primary school (esp so in lower primary) my best friends were guys (believe it or not i was a REAL tomboy last time) . i rmb being SUPER close to ben ng in pri 1-3. we would like go to each other's houses all the time. oh and how could i forget playing power rangers with him and some other guys in school! i was always the pink ranger. how annoying. oh and the science field trips we used to go on and we would like always sit at the last row of seats in the bus and talk and laugh. haha. i still have his super funny autograph. but then his dad passed away and he changed school. and when you're in pri 3 you don't really keep in contact so. then it became ben wee in upper primary. (of course i had close galfrens too, but that's not the point here. haha) hahah. we were SOOOOO mischievous! cos our families were quite close and his mom was a eng tuition tchr and my mom is a math&science tuition tchr. so i wld go to his house for english tuition and he would come to mine for math&science. oh and it didn't help tt we had chinese tuition together too. HAHA. so we were FOREVER playing tricks on our chinese tuition tchr. like holding BOTH the lifts at his eighth floor house so she would have to climb the stairs all the way up. and crawling out of the house and hiding during tuition while she was marking our work and then calling the house so the phone would ring and the tchr would panic and wonder where we were cos someone has to pick up the phone. HAHA. and of course the cockroach chewing gum thing and soooo many many other things. and always asking so many qns and giving her a nightmare. which explains why we had a different chinese tutor every year frm p4-p6. HAHAHA. oh man. and how i used to tease him endlessly abt michelle and he would tease me endlessly abt.. WELL. haha. that's not impt. but the point is. aft p6 then we went to different sec schs and then we became of that age where u know it's weird to have a best friend for a guy. so he didn't rly talk to me when i went to his house and vice versa. so that's how we stopped being friends. and now he's in australia that lucky pig. but i guess my whole point is that really, like what the book says: "it's wrong to not invite your best friend to your birthday party. even if it's a guy" as in i don't really mean the part abt the bdae party literally, but you get what i mean. i miss my best friends in primary school. EVEN though they are guys.

love, huili.