you make me
high
drunk
INTOXICATED
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006
7:27 PM
sometimes God sends people into your life.
to wake you up.
to direct you on the right path.
this is perhaps one of those times.
what you told me, really woke me up.
made me realise that what i'm doing really is not right.
but you probably don't realise the impact your words made on me.
cos well, they were directed at another person, for another person.
but they spoke to me loud and clear.
loud and clear.
but i just don't have the faith.
i don't know why but i just can't trust.
i don't want to do what i have to do.
i'm scared.
i know that "with God, anything is possible"
and that "i can do all things through Christ who strengtheneth me"
but why why why cant i just really trust?
why can't i let God work out His will in me?
why am i so willfully sinning?
why?
just force me to stop, someone.
force me to stop sinning.
force me to give it up.
force me to trust that God will bring to past something better.
and if i blame you now,
know that i'll thank you one day.
and so you ask me to encourage her.
to pray for her.
but it's really hard for me.
when i'm doing the same thing.
when i'm probably going to fall in the same trap.
when i'm going to face the same situation.
in which i'll probably sin.
why am i so weak?
so weak in faith, in spirit.
and so i don't think i can encourage her just yet.
don't think i can pray for her just yet.
until i get myself out of my own mess.
if not i'll just sound so hypocritical.
i'll be the biggest hypocrite alive.
i'll be hypocritical in prayer!
hypocritical before God!
i'm really scared.
what am i getting myself into.
oh Lord, do not desert me please.
love, huili.
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